Sunrise is never a new day and Shaharit never represents the beginning of the day. It represents the first prayer of the day and often that occurs several hours, nearly ten or twelve hours into it, after hours of sleep, after much doing. It is nearly six a m and my face is greasy with sleep, my eyes are heavy with them. Morning prayers took a little too long, namely because I am using a new prayer book, and I got up a little too late. Some mornings are like this when I do not come to bright life but it is as if they exist to exercise the last half demons of the night before. Blessings come with the morning prayer as well as exorcisms, as well as revelations. I am behind in writing. I mean, I did not write anything last night and it is hard writing in the day. i'll need the entire afternoon for that.But then, I am behind in this, and my journal has gone long untouched. In these few moments between the two sleeps, I let my heart be touched with what needs to be expressed, read, written between my soul and God and my soul and my soul. Quiet.